Loaded Vividbat Tales

Foundations

2010-03-28T23:11:00.000-07:00

This year is on a gallop to the end! and what an eventful few months it has been.. good drugs, higher self esteem, breaking barriers, being ambitious and loving harder.

Good pot, amazing music, ambitious plans, hard work in office and creating good vibes have kept me busy this year. So busy that i didnt have the time to even think about what im going to write up here. So i smoked a joint, put some mad music loud and started to celebrate the holiday! It sure feels good to be at home on a monday.

I have been very receptive to where this year is heading. There is a vibe of hope, new thought, and that want to make something happen. It sure is not easy because the people in power are more idiots than you and i think.

So i thought this must change.

This year is my year of foundations. and it could be everyones too i believe. Its the best time to do that something you always wanted to do, wanted to feel or change. so i have laid foundations to secure my loved ones, live a little better, do better drugs, and be a living example of where i feel we should all go.

We live in paradise.

SL is such a small place.

2010-03-28T22:37:00.000-07:00

I realised that Sri Lanka is not the best place to have a drug blog... because a lot of busts have been made by the almighty pigs just by hearing the common drug stories you and i talk about.

So im not going to update this with the specific drugs that i consume. but rest assured... im high, happy and been blessed this year :)

The History Of Marijuana - Watch and Learn!

2010-01-27T02:59:00.000-08:00

With Infinite Love

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-7417904870843277177&ei=NglgS6_GM4GgwgP5nLTjBg&q=marijuana&hl=en&view=3#

Vividbats Opinion On The Elections

2010-01-25T05:03:00.000-08:00

I DONT GIVE A FLYNG

FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What's Your Drug?

2010-01-21T05:23:00.000-08:00

“A drug - broadly speaking, is any substance that, when absorbed into the body of a living organism, alters normal bodily function. There is no single, precise definition for the term - Definition from Wikipedia.”

I was pondering what a drug really is. I see some people bounce off walls after eating sugar, then you get the people who are one track minded about getting laid, The people who just salivate and seem like they are in a trance when food is around them, Some are addicted to Coffee.. and might actually go into spasms if they don’t get their fix, and some who like getting into a rut ALL the time. I believe whatever happens to you in life, intentional or unintentional has to do something with your aura, energy or your level of attraction. Some by choice and some without.. but what you cant take the fact that it’s happening to YOU.

I love drugs in quite a conventional sense, but as we all know LOVE, SEX, FOOD..etc are all strong drugs. You can really overdose on it and you can really DIE in the process as well. Which all have similar characteristics to the conventional qualities of DRUGS. I mean.. Whatever makes you tick right? Some people like stuffing themselves, some like to cut themselves and some like to indulge in themselves or be addicted to someone else.

Such strong actions take place because there is a significantly strong and unusual chemical reaction in your body that really rocks your socks off! and we all indulge in them.. Whether is will be a pot smoker or a over obsessive lover.

I love my Marijuana and my LSD.( i love a LOT of other things as well.. but as i stated in my first post.. This is about ONE specific side to me... which is the "druggie" side to me :) ) Thinking about it makes me happy.. and triggers a chemical reaction in my body that is very different to when i think about something mundane (like Coldplay).

But its easy for the masses to tag me a druggie than a person who is actually addicted to something like FOOD and will kill himself in a few years from the intake of a million calories a day.

In that sense arnt we all druggies?

He is normal.. he died of a heart attack.. but im a DRUGGIE.. because i smoke pot

Strange world we live in eh?

P.S - Im just heading off to the Cinnamon Grand for the ALL YOU CAN EAT - Mongolian BBQ Promotion! hahaha..

Sober Month (Relatively)

2010-01-20T08:40:00.000-08:00

I think im having withdrawal symptoms of December. It’s such a high and a rush that it just whizzes past you.... Next thing you know its January, a new year, new resolutions, dreams, targets, and everything that you might and might not anticipate.

I have been off Ciggys for the most part of this year so far. i believe i have only had only a couple! and i haven’t smoked much pot either. i was lucky enough to get a lovely bud that was grown in our own Sri lankan soil.. you know the stuff that looks like THIS (all you pot smokers will hate me.. hehehe)

Its quite ironic that we dont really get to smoke Marijuana that looks like that. it tasted so good, and the high was just immaculate. sigh.. its tough to go back to the Marijuana that is available from your usual dodgy weed peddler. The peddler gets if from a person who is in a rural area just growing pot without any knowledge of its true potential. Or maybe the person who grows it just grows it to make his ends meet... simple logic like - If i grow this plant, i can earn money. OR everyone is just too LAZY. Lazy to grow good pot, Lazy to want some good pot, and just too lazy to do anything about it...

Im not lazy...

I have been getting some good bud for the first time in my life this year... and im going to do everything i can to not depend on the black market or the dodgy weed peddler for crappy weed. I believe in doing things well.

I will smoke good pot this year.. the wheels have been put into motion :)

Sunday Lazy Sunday

2010-01-17T02:36:00.000-08:00

Im in a good mood! Its gloomy in Colombo. and its so nice to spend an afternoon in your room not cursing the heat. What a beautiful Sunday...

Met up with my impending Jobless friend for a bluesy jam session. which ended up in us smoking, jamming more, Listening to some hectic new musicians and cursing the slow ADSL connections in Colombo. and we got into the conversation about the day - Sunday.

Sunday is known as the chill out day. a day where we dont have to worry about too many responsibilities or priorities. the bible says even GOD took a break on sunday. But isnt it funny how people around the world decided to go to Sunday mass and talk to god on the very day he specifically took a break?? Poor ol god must be like.. "Keeeeeeep awayyyyy... stop asking for things!!! its my day of slumberrr... aghhhhhhhh!!!!"

Sunday is not like Saturday.. Even though you are on chilled out mode you have this panful feeling at the back of your mind that you have to WORK TOMORROW. So you have an option to be depressed or make the most of your Sunday and go on super chillout mode or go on super party mode. After last month - i think ill pick the super chill out mode.

Im depressed with the weed im getting these days.. maybe because i have been blessed with smoking some good bud last week. sigh.. once you smoke that, you just cant go back to local pot - so tough. but im in the process of not being in this position in the coming years. I need to smoke good pot that smells and taste like fruit!

Going to arrange my room and prepare for the night now. have some super cool movies to watch and a lot of shitty pot to smoke... Still, that sounds quite lovely. Its just the weather :)

Revolution Calling

2010-01-15T05:37:00.000-08:00

This is for you... Everyone who has been here... Not for the reasons that you like this blog or what i write, or this very specific fragment of me that i have thought of sharing with you.

Just look around you...
Do you look around anymore? what do you see? have you ever thought about how you see? What made you to see? what made you trun away? and sometimes be totally oblivious to it? If you ever wanted new eyes, have you ever bothered to borrow some?
have you looked into yourself? seen yourself? found yourself? talked to yourself? ever done to at least identify ONE thing that you could call yours within you?
Or dont you see a point at all?... If you do.. then you know that something is not right. That where we are being led to may not be as good as it sounds, looks or sometimes even feels. There are signs though.. very clear ones everywhere.

This is not a tale of Woe... I believe this is the perfect brewing ground for something great.. something really amazing... something that we all can be a part of and actually feel like we have done something worthy. Something that makes you feel good inside for a long time.

Its really my curse i feel... i cant help but see, i cant help but feel.. why the fuck do i feel so much. I feel from everyone, every animal, every object, every note, every thought, every situation...
So i have to look, i have to find all of you who actually see and feel...or at least want to. and tell you that by looking closer, by learning to feel a little more, by caring that little much, its all it takes... Lennon knew it in the 60's.

All you need is love.

They are doing all they can to kill it.. every little bit of it, every sparkling piece of wonder, every little thought that will make that distinction between normal and special... ha, "special" is being used for mentally handicapped people these days.. and rightly so - because that makes the sane people "normal". The normality that kills us everyday - and not slowly too. Its amazing how the wonder is just sucked and injected out of anything good, and is injected back into the very things we should rid of us being human (like Paris Hilton)

Learn to love... a revolution is calling...

The Year Of The Bat

2010-01-09T19:55:00.000-08:00

It’s been long... too long... what an obscure few weeks it has been, just extremes, nothing less. Been wanting to write so bad... so much to say, but thinking back... I’ve been a very bad bat :)

Let’s start from where i left off...

I went on the trip... it was brutal to say the least. Intense. I actually tasted from the sweet cup of insanity, and shared it with some sober people. Fate was such that Squashiwog and i ended up having 2 and a half stamps each... what a trip. i believe this is the single most reason for the birth of Psychotica.

If there is a will there is a way...

i never thought we will even get traces of Ecstasy for the new year celebrations. But it concluded in us actually selling pills to a few beloved friends who were short. How can i break a 4 year tradition of not popping an E on the 31st of December??? But the road was tough, long, filled with confusions, external fights, and a lot of coordination. i couldn’t have done it without my friend FLASH, who was hell bent on scoring pills with me. We ended up buying over 30 pills for just the few of us... we just used all our money and bought drugs! We made it into liquid cash after selling pills to a few unfortunate people.

We party hard...

It was not just one night. But 3 nights in a row! With the best music anyone in the country could ask for. One thing is for sure... our beloved few LOVE to party. And i never knew that i could dance for over 9 hours with only a few breaks to roll hash for the needy. It was good to have my crazy diamond with me. I learnt that her being with me alone makes me happy. Which even surprises me. how i miss her.

GOOD POT...

It was bound to happen... it’s just a matter of time till i got to smoke some good fucking pot... like the pot you see when you type GOOD POT on Google images. pot that looks like nothing you see in Sri Lanka. i got to smoke some GRAND DADDY PURPLE. Which was also shared with me by my good friend Flash. The flavour.. The sweet scent of it just makes you want to BITE into it and chew it down. the buds were about an inch long and the pot actually looked and smelled like a fruit. sigh.. i love good pot! and it feels good when some good deed you have done pays off... i was there for a friend of mine in her time of need.. and she just called me the other day and told me she has some good bud for me... i cant wait to have a smoke off that!

Bottoms up...

I boozed like mad this December... Thanks to my old friend, i was finishing bottles of booze like a pro drinker with him. Thank god this is only seasonal.. Otherwise i would be a dead bat for sure.

I think I should take a break… bad bad VIVID BAT!

I Just ate Bombai Muttai..... Stoned!

2009-12-11T01:40:00.000-08:00

Ok.. so today my boss is on leave, and its friday, and i was passing by my place after doing some errands. and i just NEEDED a bong shot... Ah.. i remembered i had some finely cut grass in my little weed box as well.. so i Ran in, had 3 shots, which put a smile on my face immediately.. bounced back into my car.. cranked up the volume loud... drove moshing away at a ridiculously slow pace (its a bitch how safe you drive when you are stoned) and made my way back to work.

After i parked my car and was walking along the main road i hear something...

Tilingggg!!! tiling tilinggggg!!! TILLLLLLLIIIINNGGGG!!!!

To see its a fit looking old dude with the most colourful sarong just ringing this bell and taking a walk... which i assumed is work for him. One wave and he saw me and came up.. he was a BOMBAI MUTTAI man! i just cant remember the last time i ate some... and it was 30 bucks for one good bunch. So i bought 3. one for the security guard, one for my colleague and one for myself!

oh my god it was heavenly! Stoned also! i think im eating it after a good decade!

ugh.. Where did that man go???.. i need another one!

Tripping With The Clouds Tomorrow!

2009-12-10T21:16:00.000-08:00

Squashiwog just confirmed that we will be dropping tomorrow! yay!!!

I just cant wait! and i managed to squirm myself out of some afternoon responsibilities so i can catch the wonderful cloud formations in the sky these days. If tomorrow afternoon is going to be like any one of the days this week.. its going to be pretty sweet! We plan to DROP at about 3pm.

Its also the weekend!!! ill be working the whole day on sunday.. It will be funny to see things moving sideways in the office after the previous nights experience :D

I

2009-12-09T09:52:00.000-08:00

I remember it has been magical, a mixture of black and white
It’s my free will to know, to understand and to see.
It’s not about a master plan, infinite wisdom or the grand design
I live under your light, manifestation, toddler, fucker, to senile.
I can’t beg for forgiveness, you better forgive yourself.

I can see but i can’t explain
I can hear but i keep looking the other way
I can touch but i never knew you
I can taste but ill always be eaten
I can smell and this all seems rather rotten.

Being sober is a trip too...... But i like the alternative trip better...

2009-12-09T00:48:00.000-08:00

Well well well....

I decided that im going to get stoned EVERYDAY this month.

I usually keep a very healthy balance with any activity that i involve myself with. Balance is very important in a humans life.. because i think we are anything but balanced these days. i usually try not to get stoned every single time that i can.. i mean it just takes the magic out of it.. because i gave a shot at smoking up everyday.. and after a few months it just felt NORMAL. you didnt feel really HIGH. just a feeling that you are accustomed to. but then... give yourself a week of sobriety and then light up a bowl... ahh.. pure bliss!

but screw that! i want to make it a point to get high in December! and my beautiful glass bong is just the perfect means to have a hard hitting smoke. i plan to go on a total health trip from January.. i dont really call is a new years resolution because i dont think i can continue for one whole year. so i plan to quit smoking tobacco (which i smoke socially these days). and become a vegetarian! (im a seafood-tarian now) should be tons of fun :D

i cant wait for the weekend! i really need to trip donkey balls and i really must get the music sorted this time... Its going to be yet another night trip for me. because im busy till 6pm on Saturday. Hmmmmm.. must give Squashiwog a call..

Squashiwog The Man!

2009-12-07T21:58:00.000-08:00

I believe i have several gifts. And its amazing because these gifts.. errr.. lets call them POWERS! yeah.. so these powers have never really failed me! And one of them is that i can FEEL a person. Its strange but i seem to find a direct link to their emotions and their TRUE SELF.. way beyond a lot of things.. sigh, its hard to explain but its a feeling that has never let me down. and sometimes i have chosen to ignore it and have gotten screwed over royally.

I usually get depressed about the world, the modern social machine, what humans have become, and dreading where we are heading... eventhough the scale is tilted over heavily to the decadent side a few powerful individuals with an incorruptible will are battling in the name of everything good and peaceful in a level not thought possible before.

When i find people like this i take it upon myself to guide them through a very basic psychedelic experience. I believe it will make them realize their true potential and give them an idea of what they can really become. So far i have introduced it to over 15 people and all of them have had nothing short of a BLAST!

Suqashiwog was on of the 4 people i introduced LSD to a few months back. i guided them through their first journey and what a fun time it was.. but our good man Squashiwog has risen beyond the student level and has been actively tripping with me the past few times...

So this weekend we plan to go on a journey with 3 of the 4 people i initially introduced LSD to :)

Squashiwog is organizing the immaculate host and im happy because i know i will be tripping balls this weekend! (hopefully!)

December is the month to get high!

2009-12-07T20:31:00.000-08:00

The first week of December has already ended.. The partying hasn’t started quite as yet but you just cant ignore the gush of cold wind and the wonderful skies the month of December is offering us. Having said all this... its a month where even the most sober person ends up drunk every weekend! hahaha.. its just wonderful!

After all Jesus Christ first miracle was turning 30 barrels of water into wine eh?

Everyone is in a chilled out mood, people are spending money, sharing things, Christmas carols on the radio and a new breed of traffic cops that are like grasshoppers all around town to catch the drunk driver.

Sure Christmas is commercial and a bit over the top where some people have lost the plot.. but i believe its better to commercialize a positive, good vibes and fun event like Christmas over something somber anyday!

Hmmmmm... i know only alcohol wont satisfy my senses in an elevated state. and i have such a busy weekend up ahead.. sigh... we who live in the city are so busy its frustrating! i barely find time to enjoy a good smoke these days!

Cant give excuses like this! its Christmas! and Jesus didnt intend on people "sipping" wine if he made 30 or 40 barrels of it! People at that wedding would have gotten so wasted! :D

I got pacman on my blog!

2009-12-06T08:13:00.000-08:00

Aint pacman one of the coolest games ever?!

was so good to see it available, and if you scroll right down u can just start playing. pretty sweet eh? :)

oh oh.. and the bad guys have names too.. like "mike" and "clyde"!!! LOL

Was anyone watching the colombo sky last night?

2009-12-05T22:04:00.000-08:00

Its a beautiful Sunday, in every sense of the word. I woke up early and spoke to my crazy diamond who was tripping abroad.. and actually went to a conventional place of worship for the first time this year stoned, came home and practiced some guitar, now stoned again.. and i remembered my B(l)og!!! heck... god took rest on Sunday and chilled out... so should we! i think we humans have become waaaaaaaay too busy for anyone’s liking. i just happened to gaze into the sky just after midnight... a beautiful night, with the clouds looking so good and the moon beaming alone, through clouds and completely covered sometimes giving a circular rainbow affect all around.

the sky tells us a story everyday. in the past these stories were written as daily lessons obtained from the universe. this little concrete city that we made for ourselves is assumed safe from the adverse affects of nature (but not from the sociopaths it creates). made sweaty hot concrete rooms fitted with air-conditioning (on top of/cutting down the trees that gave us shade). fitted us LED lights to give colour (but trapped the view of the sky that manifests into infinite colours). trapped our bodies and minds in front of a pc in a tiny cubical (without using our bodies and minds to master a universal craft). i used to be such a city boy as i live in the heart of Colombo.. but with awareness im beginning to realise what we all have really drifted away from. It sure seems like a beautiful, dangerous, fun, new, awesome place.

Which is one reason why i like tripping with my favourite psychonaut(to whom i will refer to aas SUASHIWOG!. lol... ). squashiwog and i have had the best times watching the night sky the last 3 "journeys" we have had. To this day we cant explain this mysterious light in the sky that we saw............TWICE! on 2 different nights.

i hate the sky being covered up with all these buildings! why get a 32nd floor apartment when you dont have to build 32 floors in the first place... then everyone would have a killer view!

Let the sky teach you some stories...

Sex is always better when you are stoned.

2009-12-03T20:24:00.000-08:00

Its amazing how we have gotten accustomed to certain rituals and behavior patterns without question. Apparently we have the power to THINK but when i look around these days i believe that a lot of people are doing the "thinking" job for the vast populace...

its always easier to follow than to find your own way.

Unfortunately sex too has become this cheap, lame, bubbly and social status act in which most people really dont know for what reason they are doing it. im not saying sex should be this grand act where you have to overdo the roses, wine, lingerie and whatever tools you decide to include.. but at least the basic IDEA should be in place. Which is for a moment - to actually feel divine. Most cultures believe that we actually have a taste of GOD at our orgasmic point. Methods of tantric sex teach you how to reach these levels to your maximum physical potential... not everyone can have tantric sex but in your own little way dont you want to EXPLORE? dont you want to see where this wonderful act will take you and your partner? dont you want to strive till you feel its potential is explored?

The best shot of having sex these days is skillfully nabbing a drunk girl who wont even remember what happened the next day.. (if she is going to bed with you she probably will have to be DRUNK no TIPSY) actually most people who are drunk dont really recall the finer details of sex.. but it seems to give them an emotional satisfaction that they have been banged thoroughly throughout the night and they cant even recall the apparent banging! i love to be intoxicated when im having sex, but to the point that you dont know where the hell you are? whats the point?

This is why i love having sex stoned... your senses are working better than ever, every touch, bite, and embrace is amplified and so are your emotions. its amazing the levels you can go and if we just learn to overcome the lethargy that comes along with getting stoned (i on the other hand become active!) it will be one of the best experiences of your LIFE! i believe without you even knowing - you will be exploring the entirety of SEX beyond any drunken fuck you will ever have. I believe its actually playing with the gods.. because we as creatures of light have the potential to experience the sensations of the gods!

With all our perceptive capacity - why the fuck are we limiting sex to just penetration???

Do a favour to yourselves.. smoke a joint, eat a piece of space cake, get STONED and learn to make love like we humans should. most of us have lost the concept of the ultimate surrender...

Its gonna take a lot of love to turn things around.

An Early Letter To Santa

2009-12-02T02:01:00.001-08:00

Dear Santa

Thank you for not sending me the Play Station 3 i wanted last year... and yes i know i have been a bad boy but seriously... you cant give me that same excuse every year.

This year im going to ask fro something more practical, something i REALLY need and something im actually willing to PAY for. all you have to do is bring it to me and i will keep the money in my christmas sock.

Santa i need DRUGS.

Firstly im going to request my favourite - LSD!
i know you have been visiting St.Hofmanns house every year and tripping balls with him after your worldwide round of delivering gifts. so please spare a thought for little ol me who is stuck in this hell hole where you get the worse drug dealers in the world, and no proper chemist who can synthesize the drop of infinite awareness.
since im too broke to send Christmas cards to everyone and not too lame to send facebook wishes - you have to send me at least 25 stamps (which im willing to pay for) so that i can send love to all my friends and share some of that love with them too.
Please santa... i need some good LSD!

No.2 on my christmas list - ECSTACY!
i truly believe christmas is about celebration! and celebrate we must! this is a special year for us in SL as its going to be the first christmas since we tortured and killed the anti party rebel leader prabhakaran. which gives us all the more reason to party. but i really dont want to drown myself in alcohol and make a complete ass of myself, throw up, and feel like hell for the next 2 days. i want to dance till morning, hug everyone around me with that feeling of extreme love, grind my teeth and wonder why it feels so good, and take the party to a level that it feels like the best party in the world. i need about 20 pills so i can make everyone around me happy and like the acid i will keep the cash for the pills in my second christmas sock tagged E.
Please santa.... i need ECSTACY!

Im not greedy... only 3 items in a christmas list!!! (not bad eh??)

No.3 on my christmas list - MDMA or Wii's
The situation has been so bad here it seems like god herself is finding it hard to grand No.1 & 2 on my christmas list (amidst thousands of prayers) so please note this down as my last resort.. Good MDMA will make up for the Ecstasy and the Wii's will make up for the acid (ugh.. not really... but beggars cant be choosers!)

Please santa - send me SOME DRUGS this christmas.

Im sorry if i have been naughty this year.. which is why i plan to pay for all my gifts from you.

Love
Vividbat

31st night without E?? :S

2009-12-02T01:45:00.000-08:00

Its the beginning of December and im freaking out!

Everyone is on celebration mode in December.. the climate is cool, the stores are open till late, people are on the streets and everyone is getting drunk and eating way more than they should. all good.. but for me to feel in on the action i need to go on a severe drug binge!

Since the last 5 years i have been looking forward to December because i can get out of Colombo and hit a better party than any Colombo joint has to offer.. along with a good environment to pop a pill or two of E. sigh.. Those were the days...

Sri lanka has not been blessed with a good pill for over an year! which fuckin sucks! coz i remember back in the day where we used to just walk into a known dealer and buy some GOOD pills. Now thats not the case. i think everyone is scared to deal pills. because a few have been caught. ughh..

The thought of not doing a pill on 31st night sends shivers down my spine! and as of this month SL is out of fresh acid as well. woo-fuckin-hoo! i like to prepare for my parties. i got the friends, the location, the cash.. but no fuckin drugs! how pathetic.

so the situation is scary. No E, No Acid, No MDMA, and No Wii's

My weekend journey to the cosmos!

2009-11-29T21:38:00.000-08:00

It was another weekend and like every weekend i was wondering how to spice it up...

i get a call from my fellow psychonaut around 6pm - "hey man.. shall we DROP tonight"
which sounded like music to my ears.. it has almost been one month since we went on our last trip and the night was beautiful the moon and the stars were out with some pretty clouds giving the "ice cream effect".

i had to do a few stops before i finally made it to my friends place with my i pod, speakers, change of clothes and tons of marijuana to keep us company while we journey to the stars. this will be my 4th acid trip with my fellow psychonaut at his place.

We took one stamp each around 11pm, and prepared our dwelling place on the balcony of his apartment with candles, a bottle of arrack, tobacco, weed, few slices of pizza and water... i panicked as the speakers were not working and music is one of the most important aspects of my trip... stupid speakers failed me and i was stuck with no music! fuck it.. YES FM was playing a good house music mix till morning so we put that on and surprisingly it went well.

around midnight we started to feel the affects of the LSD. its tingly feeling and everything starts to look prettier.. and the straight outlines of objects start to wiggle a bit.. which is quite amusing! we had a friend over who left around midnight so both of us had to see her out.. one our way down the "S" shaped floor tiles were like snakes all over the place and both of us jumped up saying holy shit!! and continued to stare at the morphing floor tiles flowing and merging into one another.. ah just wonderful!

i think we reached LEVEL 3 with this stamp (ref - http://loadedvividbat.blogspot.com/2009/11/levels-of-psychedelic-experience.html)

the music was getting better and better and we broke into dance going nuts! just the 2 of us rocking it in the dim lit apartment and its just wonderful how you feel your body flow to the music blending into the rhythm and feeling so expressive with every busting move! we have a fantastic view of the buildings around and it seemed like the buildings were dancing too - just like a cartoon! all forms of reality have been twisted and animate.. after a few moments we started to gaze into the sky, moon and the stars which were twinkling and sparkling like a wonderful lights show! the universe was partying with us!

its amazing how you never run out of conversation.. we were laughing and talking about the mysteries of society and the relationships of our friends. its amazing how you understand human behaviors in this state. laughter mixed with nostalgia, heart felt emotions and love so strong you can actually grasp it with your hands! we sent love to all our loved ones and to St.Hofmann.

The morning broke and this was a different morning to the ones we usually experience - dark, cloudy, with a mystic blue that covered us. it was really a wonderful morning and we welcomed it with a shot of arrack and a joint!

As the affects were wearing off i used the final bits of energy remaining from it to do some morning exercises that helped me shoot up some blood to my brain! all in all this trip was very therapeutic for the both of us. and made us understand a lot of things that have been doubtful in our lives. i truly believe i become a better person with each trip i take - and in St.Hofmanns book "LSD my problem child" he too believes in this time and age, psychedelic experiences will heal the human race by making them realize their true potential as supreme cosmic creatures.

god bless LSD and everything that’s psychedelic

al(L) i want for chri(S)tmas are (D)rugs!

2009-11-27T20:45:00.000-08:00

hahahaha... couldn’t resist saying that!

Its almost December and (I know its not only me) it feels like Christmas is actually around the corner. i remember many years where its only a few days to Christmas and still there was no apparent nostalgic, exciting feeling. Maybe because I have a lot of things to look forward to this Christmas.

Miss crazy diamond will be spending Christmas with me which is nothing short of wonderful! Miss crazy diamond is the love of my life and a veteran psychonaut. there is nothing like having a like minded lover who dares to venture into every little interesting scenario i can possibly imagine. (Cant wait to write a "sex on LSD" post in December!)

I have saved up a little money for Christmas - its not much but it will be suffice for me to have a blast! its sad what a big part money plays in having a good time in the heart of Colombo. Its not pretty but that’s the truth.. Think about it - it costs to do ANYTHING here. And its costs a lot too. so without being a tree hugging bitch i have learned to find these powerful pieces of paper that makes most of our lives go around in the city.

But i really do hope the acid gods will smile upon us and bless us with the hallucigenic host. not many people have much knowledge about LSD or any other psychedelic substance in Sri lanka - it has all been classed as DRUGS and that its bad for you and that it will make you a retard. oh wonderful wonderful perceptions!

but i do plan on taking a "journey" sometime soon.. hopefully with my fellow buddy psychonaut on a beautiful night filled with stars! (need to see that light show again!)

If any of you are scratching your heads wondering what the fuck im on about... its about time you educated yourself on the heavenly host of the universe.

St.Albert Hofmann was chosen by the universe to synthesize the molecule of infinite awareness.(which is also my display picture on the top right.. St.Hofmann holding the LSD 25 molecule structure and the infinite awareness of the universe manifested in a form of a beautiful vivid pheonix, pouring drops of infinite wisdom and truth to the molecular structure... painted by the great Alex Grey - oil on canvas.

St.Albert Hofmann (who died last year at 102 years old in 2008) - check out the link!

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Albert_Hofmann

Levels of Psychedelic Experience

2009-11-25T22:15:00.000-08:00

Levels of Psychedelic experience

The Erowid Psychoactive Vaults discuss Psychedelic Experience in an FAQ that partially overviews ideas expressed in Timothy Leary's book The Psychedelic Experience: A Manual Based on the Tibetan Book of the Dead. They classified five levels of psychedelic experience.

Level 1
This level produces a mild 'stoning' effect, with some visual enhancement (e.g. brighter colors) Some short term memory anomalies. Left and right brain communication changes causing music to sound 'wider'. Can be achieved with low to medium doses of cannabis.

Level 2
Bright colors, and visuals (ie. things start to move and breathe) some 2 dimensional patterns become apparent upon shutting eyes. Confused or reminiscent thoughts. Change of short term memory leads to continual distractive thought patterns. Vast increase in abstract thought becomes apparent as the natural brain filter is bypassed. Can be achieved with higher doses of cannabis or low doses of psilocybin.

Level 3
Very obvious visuals, everything looking curved and/or warped patterns and kaleidoscopes seen on walls, faces etc. Some mild hallucinations such as rivers flowing in wood grained or 'mother of pearl' surfaces. Closed eye hallucinations become 3 dimensional. There is some confusing of the senses (ie. seeing sounds as colors etc.) Time distortions and `moments of eternity`. Movement at times becomes extremely difficult (too much effort required) Can be achieved with normal doses of psilocybin or [LSD].

Level 4
Strong hallucinations, that is, objects morphing into other objects. Destruction or multiple splitting of the ego. (Things start talking to you, or you find that you are feeling contradictory things simultaneously) Some loss of reality. Time becomes meaningless. Out of body experiences and extra-sensory perception type phenomena. Blending of the senses.

Level 5
Total loss of visual connection with reality. The senses cease to function in the normal way. One may feel like they are merging with space, other objects, or the universe, or feel oneness with the world. There are powerful, and sometimes brutal, psycho-physical reactions interpreted by some users as reliving their own birth. Feelings of reaching to the beginning or the end of space and time. The loss of reality becomes so extreme that it becomes ineffable. Dream or movie-like states, people have been reported seeing themselves in entirely different settings than their original setting. Many people experience religious phenomenon at this level. Often mentioned are an "all-powerful presence" or a "universal knowledge" which many equate to their idea of God or enlightenment. During experiences caused by substances such as DMT (which is an active ingredient in Ayahuasca), many people encounter conscious beings or entities that that seem to be alien or something stranger and manufacture visual patterns of objects that are self-aware themselves inside an incredibly strange and alien reality. These experiences cause people to experience an extra-dimensional reality of geometric patterns. Earlier levels are relatively easy to describe in terms of measurable changes in perception and thought patterns. "Ego loss", or complete dissolution of one's awareness of the existence of self, is an essential trait of level 5 experiences; the boundaries between "self" and encompassing reality cease to exist, and all that one is conscious of is the abstract manifestations of the hallucination. Thoughts are not processed or realized in words or an "inner voice", as in everyday life; in the midst of a level 5 hallucination, it is essentially impossible to distinguish conscious thought from the hallucination itself. This feeling has been described, with tryptamine-based hallucinogens like LSD or high doses of psilocybin, as a sense of "oneness" with the universe; with extremely powerful entheogens such as DMT or salvia divinorum, the resultant hallucination is difficult to describe, but has been likened by some to being "transformed into a Picasso painting". Many people claim to have spoken to intelligent entities during their trips, to have experienced alternate dimensions, or to have existed for thousands of years - often not as a human but as an abstract entity such as a shadow or paint - though the trip itself, in the case of salvia and DMT, lasted only five to ten minutes. This effect can be produced in high doses of LSD, salvia divinorum, and psilocybin.

Waking to "The Division Bell"

2009-11-21T20:14:00.000-08:00

(blows smoke outttttttt............)

Good morning... its so cold! :) and by some twist of fate i found Pink Floyd's "The Division Bell" record... fuck... I love playing music for the moment. its sunday, its cold outside, i just had 2 bowls, and pink floyd is just taking me to another world.

Sending everyone a lot of love from my happy place...

<3

I wanted to write this after a bowl - but i got high...

2009-11-19T22:19:00.000-08:00

Im on a quest to purify my body! its a little form of detoxification that i do from time to time.. just something i figured out myself.. it involves starving, eating vegetarian, pushing my physical limits, lots of water and smoking some good herb that i got yesterday. Besides it gives me a good reason to visit my local vegetable vendor that has the most amazing veggies in the world! and its so cheap!!! i truly believe us Sri lankans are blessed with the yummiest edibles that mother earth has to offer.

I realised that everyone around me knows that i smoke pot. I came clean with my parents last year as i cant be bothered hiding stuff in my mid twenties and it seems to be common news that im a faithful endorser of the oh so taboo Marijuana plant.

Go fucking lick a sack!

Its amazing when someone who is so overweight, that they cant climb a flight of stairs, comes and tells me how BAD it is to smoke Marijuana. WTF??? im thinking you are 20 kilos more than you should be, you drown yourself in booze on a regular basis, you are suffering from so many illnesses its better to DIE than to live in a sorry excuse of a vessel you call your body! ugh...

I have learned its much better to smile and walk away as the little fragment in their thick skulls which is called a brain actually realises that THIS POT HEAD IS more fit, looks better and eons healthier that they could dream of... and it eats them inside that a POT smoker is actually this way.

Come walk with me for one day and ill watch you crawl

This is something every pot smoker has to go through in a society that spends millions of rupees on framing this plant that makes you actually THINK.

You know you can THINK right? its not illegal yet...

But living in Colombo... it sure feels otherwise.

Im high on life! (by life i mean drugs!)

2009-11-19T02:41:00.000-08:00

Hmmmm... this square feels a little claustrophobic but im sure ill have to get accustomed to this.... just like i plan to get accustomed to b(l)ogging.

Hello world of the b(l)og! i plan on writing about something that is near and dear to me, been with me since i was a teenager, taught me lessons i would have never ever learnt through my friends parents or anyone living for that matter, made me a better human being, made me understand love, and made me understand what i really want and made me wonder to the point that i feel that i know NOTHING.

oh yeah.. im talking about drugs!

im not going to be bothered with defining what drugs i do and dont do. i have my own moral stance on it and it seems to be working fine with me balancing my health, work, friends, moods, relationships and life in general.

i am just here to share with you some tales that you might not hear from your day to day conversations with peers, family, loved ones, fuck buddies.. etc (unless you are like ME :)

i got to thank fellow b(l)ogger and a shockingly promising psychonaut for suggesting that i should start my own b(l)og!

to do justice to this b(l)og i think my first proper tale should be after i smoke a nice big bowl. i tend to be more descriptive then :)