Ok.. so today my boss is on leave, and its friday, and i was passing by my place after doing some errands. and i just NEEDED a bong shot... Ah.. i remembered i had some finely cut grass in my little weed box as well.. so i Ran in, had 3 shots, which put a smile on my face immediately.. bounced back into my car.. cranked up the volume loud... drove moshing away at a ridiculously slow pace (its a bitch how safe you drive when you are stoned) and made my way back to work.
After i parked my car and was walking along the main road i hear something...
Tilingggg!!! tiling tilinggggg!!! TILLLLLLLIIIINNGGGG!!!!
To see its a fit looking old dude with the most colourful sarong just ringing this bell and taking a walk... which i assumed is work for him. One wave and he saw me and came up.. he was a BOMBAI MUTTAI man! i just cant remember the last time i ate some... and it was 30 bucks for one good bunch. So i bought 3. one for the security guard, one for my colleague and one for myself!
oh my god it was heavenly! Stoned also! i think im eating it after a good decade!
ugh.. Where did that man go???.. i need another one!
Friday, December 11, 2009
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Tripping With The Clouds Tomorrow!
Squashiwog just confirmed that we will be dropping tomorrow! yay!!!
I just cant wait! and i managed to squirm myself out of some afternoon responsibilities so i can catch the wonderful cloud formations in the sky these days. If tomorrow afternoon is going to be like any one of the days this week.. its going to be pretty sweet! We plan to DROP at about 3pm.
Its also the weekend!!! ill be working the whole day on sunday.. It will be funny to see things moving sideways in the office after the previous nights experience :D
I just cant wait! and i managed to squirm myself out of some afternoon responsibilities so i can catch the wonderful cloud formations in the sky these days. If tomorrow afternoon is going to be like any one of the days this week.. its going to be pretty sweet! We plan to DROP at about 3pm.
Its also the weekend!!! ill be working the whole day on sunday.. It will be funny to see things moving sideways in the office after the previous nights experience :D
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
I
I remember it has been magical, a mixture of black and white
It’s my free will to know, to understand and to see.
It’s not about a master plan, infinite wisdom or the grand design
I live under your light, manifestation, toddler, fucker, to senile.
I can’t beg for forgiveness, you better forgive yourself.
I can see but i can’t explain
I can hear but i keep looking the other way
I can touch but i never knew you
I can taste but ill always be eaten
I can smell and this all seems rather rotten.
It’s my free will to know, to understand and to see.
It’s not about a master plan, infinite wisdom or the grand design
I live under your light, manifestation, toddler, fucker, to senile.
I can’t beg for forgiveness, you better forgive yourself.
I can see but i can’t explain
I can hear but i keep looking the other way
I can touch but i never knew you
I can taste but ill always be eaten
I can smell and this all seems rather rotten.
Being sober is a trip too...... But i like the alternative trip better...
Well well well....
I decided that im going to get stoned EVERYDAY this month.
I usually keep a very healthy balance with any activity that i involve myself with. Balance is very important in a humans life.. because i think we are anything but balanced these days. i usually try not to get stoned every single time that i can.. i mean it just takes the magic out of it.. because i gave a shot at smoking up everyday.. and after a few months it just felt NORMAL. you didnt feel really HIGH. just a feeling that you are accustomed to. but then... give yourself a week of sobriety and then light up a bowl... ahh.. pure bliss!
but screw that! i want to make it a point to get high in December! and my beautiful glass bong is just the perfect means to have a hard hitting smoke. i plan to go on a total health trip from January.. i dont really call is a new years resolution because i dont think i can continue for one whole year. so i plan to quit smoking tobacco (which i smoke socially these days). and become a vegetarian! (im a seafood-tarian now) should be tons of fun :D
i cant wait for the weekend! i really need to trip donkey balls and i really must get the music sorted this time... Its going to be yet another night trip for me. because im busy till 6pm on Saturday. Hmmmmm.. must give Squashiwog a call..
I decided that im going to get stoned EVERYDAY this month.
I usually keep a very healthy balance with any activity that i involve myself with. Balance is very important in a humans life.. because i think we are anything but balanced these days. i usually try not to get stoned every single time that i can.. i mean it just takes the magic out of it.. because i gave a shot at smoking up everyday.. and after a few months it just felt NORMAL. you didnt feel really HIGH. just a feeling that you are accustomed to. but then... give yourself a week of sobriety and then light up a bowl... ahh.. pure bliss!
but screw that! i want to make it a point to get high in December! and my beautiful glass bong is just the perfect means to have a hard hitting smoke. i plan to go on a total health trip from January.. i dont really call is a new years resolution because i dont think i can continue for one whole year. so i plan to quit smoking tobacco (which i smoke socially these days). and become a vegetarian! (im a seafood-tarian now) should be tons of fun :D
i cant wait for the weekend! i really need to trip donkey balls and i really must get the music sorted this time... Its going to be yet another night trip for me. because im busy till 6pm on Saturday. Hmmmmm.. must give Squashiwog a call..
Monday, December 7, 2009
Squashiwog The Man!
I believe i have several gifts. And its amazing because these gifts.. errr.. lets call them POWERS! yeah.. so these powers have never really failed me! And one of them is that i can FEEL a person. Its strange but i seem to find a direct link to their emotions and their TRUE SELF.. way beyond a lot of things.. sigh, its hard to explain but its a feeling that has never let me down. and sometimes i have chosen to ignore it and have gotten screwed over royally.
I usually get depressed about the world, the modern social machine, what humans have become, and dreading where we are heading... eventhough the scale is tilted over heavily to the decadent side a few powerful individuals with an incorruptible will are battling in the name of everything good and peaceful in a level not thought possible before.
When i find people like this i take it upon myself to guide them through a very basic psychedelic experience. I believe it will make them realize their true potential and give them an idea of what they can really become. So far i have introduced it to over 15 people and all of them have had nothing short of a BLAST!
Suqashiwog was on of the 4 people i introduced LSD to a few months back. i guided them through their first journey and what a fun time it was.. but our good man Squashiwog has risen beyond the student level and has been actively tripping with me the past few times...
So this weekend we plan to go on a journey with 3 of the 4 people i initially introduced LSD to :)
Squashiwog is organizing the immaculate host and im happy because i know i will be tripping balls this weekend! (hopefully!)
I usually get depressed about the world, the modern social machine, what humans have become, and dreading where we are heading... eventhough the scale is tilted over heavily to the decadent side a few powerful individuals with an incorruptible will are battling in the name of everything good and peaceful in a level not thought possible before.
When i find people like this i take it upon myself to guide them through a very basic psychedelic experience. I believe it will make them realize their true potential and give them an idea of what they can really become. So far i have introduced it to over 15 people and all of them have had nothing short of a BLAST!
Suqashiwog was on of the 4 people i introduced LSD to a few months back. i guided them through their first journey and what a fun time it was.. but our good man Squashiwog has risen beyond the student level and has been actively tripping with me the past few times...
So this weekend we plan to go on a journey with 3 of the 4 people i initially introduced LSD to :)
Squashiwog is organizing the immaculate host and im happy because i know i will be tripping balls this weekend! (hopefully!)
December is the month to get high!
The first week of December has already ended.. The partying hasn’t started quite as yet but you just cant ignore the gush of cold wind and the wonderful skies the month of December is offering us. Having said all this... its a month where even the most sober person ends up drunk every weekend! hahaha.. its just wonderful!
After all Jesus Christ first miracle was turning 30 barrels of water into wine eh?
Everyone is in a chilled out mood, people are spending money, sharing things, Christmas carols on the radio and a new breed of traffic cops that are like grasshoppers all around town to catch the drunk driver.
Sure Christmas is commercial and a bit over the top where some people have lost the plot.. but i believe its better to commercialize a positive, good vibes and fun event like Christmas over something somber anyday!
Hmmmmm... i know only alcohol wont satisfy my senses in an elevated state. and i have such a busy weekend up ahead.. sigh... we who live in the city are so busy its frustrating! i barely find time to enjoy a good smoke these days!
Cant give excuses like this! its Christmas! and Jesus didnt intend on people "sipping" wine if he made 30 or 40 barrels of it! People at that wedding would have gotten so wasted! :D
After all Jesus Christ first miracle was turning 30 barrels of water into wine eh?
Everyone is in a chilled out mood, people are spending money, sharing things, Christmas carols on the radio and a new breed of traffic cops that are like grasshoppers all around town to catch the drunk driver.
Sure Christmas is commercial and a bit over the top where some people have lost the plot.. but i believe its better to commercialize a positive, good vibes and fun event like Christmas over something somber anyday!
Hmmmmm... i know only alcohol wont satisfy my senses in an elevated state. and i have such a busy weekend up ahead.. sigh... we who live in the city are so busy its frustrating! i barely find time to enjoy a good smoke these days!
Cant give excuses like this! its Christmas! and Jesus didnt intend on people "sipping" wine if he made 30 or 40 barrels of it! People at that wedding would have gotten so wasted! :D
Sunday, December 6, 2009
I got pacman on my blog!
Aint pacman one of the coolest games ever?!
was so good to see it available, and if you scroll right down u can just start playing. pretty sweet eh? :)
oh oh.. and the bad guys have names too.. like "mike" and "clyde"!!! LOL
was so good to see it available, and if you scroll right down u can just start playing. pretty sweet eh? :)
oh oh.. and the bad guys have names too.. like "mike" and "clyde"!!! LOL
Saturday, December 5, 2009
Was anyone watching the colombo sky last night?
Its a beautiful Sunday, in every sense of the word. I woke up early and spoke to my crazy diamond who was tripping abroad.. and actually went to a conventional place of worship for the first time this year stoned, came home and practiced some guitar, now stoned again.. and i remembered my B(l)og!!! heck... god took rest on Sunday and chilled out... so should we! i think we humans have become waaaaaaaay too busy for anyone’s liking. i just happened to gaze into the sky just after midnight... a beautiful night, with the clouds looking so good and the moon beaming alone, through clouds and completely covered sometimes giving a circular rainbow affect all around.
the sky tells us a story everyday. in the past these stories were written as daily lessons obtained from the universe. this little concrete city that we made for ourselves is assumed safe from the adverse affects of nature (but not from the sociopaths it creates). made sweaty hot concrete rooms fitted with air-conditioning (on top of/cutting down the trees that gave us shade). fitted us LED lights to give colour (but trapped the view of the sky that manifests into infinite colours). trapped our bodies and minds in front of a pc in a tiny cubical (without using our bodies and minds to master a universal craft). i used to be such a city boy as i live in the heart of Colombo.. but with awareness im beginning to realise what we all have really drifted away from. It sure seems like a beautiful, dangerous, fun, new, awesome place.
Which is one reason why i like tripping with my favourite psychonaut(to whom i will refer to aas SUASHIWOG!. lol... ). squashiwog and i have had the best times watching the night sky the last 3 "journeys" we have had. To this day we cant explain this mysterious light in the sky that we saw............TWICE! on 2 different nights.
i hate the sky being covered up with all these buildings! why get a 32nd floor apartment when you dont have to build 32 floors in the first place... then everyone would have a killer view!
Let the sky teach you some stories...
the sky tells us a story everyday. in the past these stories were written as daily lessons obtained from the universe. this little concrete city that we made for ourselves is assumed safe from the adverse affects of nature (but not from the sociopaths it creates). made sweaty hot concrete rooms fitted with air-conditioning (on top of/cutting down the trees that gave us shade). fitted us LED lights to give colour (but trapped the view of the sky that manifests into infinite colours). trapped our bodies and minds in front of a pc in a tiny cubical (without using our bodies and minds to master a universal craft). i used to be such a city boy as i live in the heart of Colombo.. but with awareness im beginning to realise what we all have really drifted away from. It sure seems like a beautiful, dangerous, fun, new, awesome place.
Which is one reason why i like tripping with my favourite psychonaut(to whom i will refer to aas SUASHIWOG!. lol... ). squashiwog and i have had the best times watching the night sky the last 3 "journeys" we have had. To this day we cant explain this mysterious light in the sky that we saw............TWICE! on 2 different nights.
i hate the sky being covered up with all these buildings! why get a 32nd floor apartment when you dont have to build 32 floors in the first place... then everyone would have a killer view!
Let the sky teach you some stories...
Thursday, December 3, 2009
Sex is always better when you are stoned.
Its amazing how we have gotten accustomed to certain rituals and behavior patterns without question. Apparently we have the power to THINK but when i look around these days i believe that a lot of people are doing the "thinking" job for the vast populace...
its always easier to follow than to find your own way.
Unfortunately sex too has become this cheap, lame, bubbly and social status act in which most people really dont know for what reason they are doing it. im not saying sex should be this grand act where you have to overdo the roses, wine, lingerie and whatever tools you decide to include.. but at least the basic IDEA should be in place. Which is for a moment - to actually feel divine. Most cultures believe that we actually have a taste of GOD at our orgasmic point. Methods of tantric sex teach you how to reach these levels to your maximum physical potential... not everyone can have tantric sex but in your own little way dont you want to EXPLORE? dont you want to see where this wonderful act will take you and your partner? dont you want to strive till you feel its potential is explored?
The best shot of having sex these days is skillfully nabbing a drunk girl who wont even remember what happened the next day.. (if she is going to bed with you she probably will have to be DRUNK no TIPSY) actually most people who are drunk dont really recall the finer details of sex.. but it seems to give them an emotional satisfaction that they have been banged thoroughly throughout the night and they cant even recall the apparent banging! i love to be intoxicated when im having sex, but to the point that you dont know where the hell you are? whats the point?
This is why i love having sex stoned... your senses are working better than ever, every touch, bite, and embrace is amplified and so are your emotions. its amazing the levels you can go and if we just learn to overcome the lethargy that comes along with getting stoned (i on the other hand become active!) it will be one of the best experiences of your LIFE! i believe without you even knowing - you will be exploring the entirety of SEX beyond any drunken fuck you will ever have. I believe its actually playing with the gods.. because we as creatures of light have the potential to experience the sensations of the gods!
With all our perceptive capacity - why the fuck are we limiting sex to just penetration???
Do a favour to yourselves.. smoke a joint, eat a piece of space cake, get STONED and learn to make love like we humans should. most of us have lost the concept of the ultimate surrender...
Its gonna take a lot of love to turn things around.
its always easier to follow than to find your own way.
Unfortunately sex too has become this cheap, lame, bubbly and social status act in which most people really dont know for what reason they are doing it. im not saying sex should be this grand act where you have to overdo the roses, wine, lingerie and whatever tools you decide to include.. but at least the basic IDEA should be in place. Which is for a moment - to actually feel divine. Most cultures believe that we actually have a taste of GOD at our orgasmic point. Methods of tantric sex teach you how to reach these levels to your maximum physical potential... not everyone can have tantric sex but in your own little way dont you want to EXPLORE? dont you want to see where this wonderful act will take you and your partner? dont you want to strive till you feel its potential is explored?
The best shot of having sex these days is skillfully nabbing a drunk girl who wont even remember what happened the next day.. (if she is going to bed with you she probably will have to be DRUNK no TIPSY) actually most people who are drunk dont really recall the finer details of sex.. but it seems to give them an emotional satisfaction that they have been banged thoroughly throughout the night and they cant even recall the apparent banging! i love to be intoxicated when im having sex, but to the point that you dont know where the hell you are? whats the point?
This is why i love having sex stoned... your senses are working better than ever, every touch, bite, and embrace is amplified and so are your emotions. its amazing the levels you can go and if we just learn to overcome the lethargy that comes along with getting stoned (i on the other hand become active!) it will be one of the best experiences of your LIFE! i believe without you even knowing - you will be exploring the entirety of SEX beyond any drunken fuck you will ever have. I believe its actually playing with the gods.. because we as creatures of light have the potential to experience the sensations of the gods!
With all our perceptive capacity - why the fuck are we limiting sex to just penetration???
Do a favour to yourselves.. smoke a joint, eat a piece of space cake, get STONED and learn to make love like we humans should. most of us have lost the concept of the ultimate surrender...
Its gonna take a lot of love to turn things around.
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
An Early Letter To Santa
Dear Santa
Thank you for not sending me the Play Station 3 i wanted last year... and yes i know i have been a bad boy but seriously... you cant give me that same excuse every year.
This year im going to ask fro something more practical, something i REALLY need and something im actually willing to PAY for. all you have to do is bring it to me and i will keep the money in my christmas sock.
Santa i need DRUGS.
Firstly im going to request my favourite - LSD!
i know you have been visiting St.Hofmanns house every year and tripping balls with him after your worldwide round of delivering gifts. so please spare a thought for little ol me who is stuck in this hell hole where you get the worse drug dealers in the world, and no proper chemist who can synthesize the drop of infinite awareness.
since im too broke to send Christmas cards to everyone and not too lame to send facebook wishes - you have to send me at least 25 stamps (which im willing to pay for) so that i can send love to all my friends and share some of that love with them too.
Please santa... i need some good LSD!
No.2 on my christmas list - ECSTACY!
i truly believe christmas is about celebration! and celebrate we must! this is a special year for us in SL as its going to be the first christmas since we tortured and killed the anti party rebel leader prabhakaran. which gives us all the more reason to party. but i really dont want to drown myself in alcohol and make a complete ass of myself, throw up, and feel like hell for the next 2 days. i want to dance till morning, hug everyone around me with that feeling of extreme love, grind my teeth and wonder why it feels so good, and take the party to a level that it feels like the best party in the world. i need about 20 pills so i can make everyone around me happy and like the acid i will keep the cash for the pills in my second christmas sock tagged E.
Please santa.... i need ECSTACY!
Im not greedy... only 3 items in a christmas list!!! (not bad eh??)
No.3 on my christmas list - MDMA or Wii's
The situation has been so bad here it seems like god herself is finding it hard to grand No.1 & 2 on my christmas list (amidst thousands of prayers) so please note this down as my last resort.. Good MDMA will make up for the Ecstasy and the Wii's will make up for the acid (ugh.. not really... but beggars cant be choosers!)
Please santa - send me SOME DRUGS this christmas.
Im sorry if i have been naughty this year.. which is why i plan to pay for all my gifts from you.
Love
Vividbat
Thank you for not sending me the Play Station 3 i wanted last year... and yes i know i have been a bad boy but seriously... you cant give me that same excuse every year.
This year im going to ask fro something more practical, something i REALLY need and something im actually willing to PAY for. all you have to do is bring it to me and i will keep the money in my christmas sock.
Santa i need DRUGS.
Firstly im going to request my favourite - LSD!
i know you have been visiting St.Hofmanns house every year and tripping balls with him after your worldwide round of delivering gifts. so please spare a thought for little ol me who is stuck in this hell hole where you get the worse drug dealers in the world, and no proper chemist who can synthesize the drop of infinite awareness.
since im too broke to send Christmas cards to everyone and not too lame to send facebook wishes - you have to send me at least 25 stamps (which im willing to pay for) so that i can send love to all my friends and share some of that love with them too.
Please santa... i need some good LSD!
No.2 on my christmas list - ECSTACY!
i truly believe christmas is about celebration! and celebrate we must! this is a special year for us in SL as its going to be the first christmas since we tortured and killed the anti party rebel leader prabhakaran. which gives us all the more reason to party. but i really dont want to drown myself in alcohol and make a complete ass of myself, throw up, and feel like hell for the next 2 days. i want to dance till morning, hug everyone around me with that feeling of extreme love, grind my teeth and wonder why it feels so good, and take the party to a level that it feels like the best party in the world. i need about 20 pills so i can make everyone around me happy and like the acid i will keep the cash for the pills in my second christmas sock tagged E.
Please santa.... i need ECSTACY!
Im not greedy... only 3 items in a christmas list!!! (not bad eh??)
No.3 on my christmas list - MDMA or Wii's
The situation has been so bad here it seems like god herself is finding it hard to grand No.1 & 2 on my christmas list (amidst thousands of prayers) so please note this down as my last resort.. Good MDMA will make up for the Ecstasy and the Wii's will make up for the acid (ugh.. not really... but beggars cant be choosers!)
Please santa - send me SOME DRUGS this christmas.
Im sorry if i have been naughty this year.. which is why i plan to pay for all my gifts from you.
Love
Vividbat
31st night without E?? :S
Its the beginning of December and im freaking out!
Everyone is on celebration mode in December.. the climate is cool, the stores are open till late, people are on the streets and everyone is getting drunk and eating way more than they should. all good.. but for me to feel in on the action i need to go on a severe drug binge!
Since the last 5 years i have been looking forward to December because i can get out of Colombo and hit a better party than any Colombo joint has to offer.. along with a good environment to pop a pill or two of E. sigh.. Those were the days...
Sri lanka has not been blessed with a good pill for over an year! which fuckin sucks! coz i remember back in the day where we used to just walk into a known dealer and buy some GOOD pills. Now thats not the case. i think everyone is scared to deal pills. because a few have been caught. ughh..
The thought of not doing a pill on 31st night sends shivers down my spine! and as of this month SL is out of fresh acid as well. woo-fuckin-hoo! i like to prepare for my parties. i got the friends, the location, the cash.. but no fuckin drugs! how pathetic.
so the situation is scary. No E, No Acid, No MDMA, and No Wii's
Everyone is on celebration mode in December.. the climate is cool, the stores are open till late, people are on the streets and everyone is getting drunk and eating way more than they should. all good.. but for me to feel in on the action i need to go on a severe drug binge!
Since the last 5 years i have been looking forward to December because i can get out of Colombo and hit a better party than any Colombo joint has to offer.. along with a good environment to pop a pill or two of E. sigh.. Those were the days...
Sri lanka has not been blessed with a good pill for over an year! which fuckin sucks! coz i remember back in the day where we used to just walk into a known dealer and buy some GOOD pills. Now thats not the case. i think everyone is scared to deal pills. because a few have been caught. ughh..
The thought of not doing a pill on 31st night sends shivers down my spine! and as of this month SL is out of fresh acid as well. woo-fuckin-hoo! i like to prepare for my parties. i got the friends, the location, the cash.. but no fuckin drugs! how pathetic.
so the situation is scary. No E, No Acid, No MDMA, and No Wii's
Sunday, November 29, 2009
My weekend journey to the cosmos!
It was another weekend and like every weekend i was wondering how to spice it up...
i get a call from my fellow psychonaut around 6pm - "hey man.. shall we DROP tonight"
which sounded like music to my ears.. it has almost been one month since we went on our last trip and the night was beautiful the moon and the stars were out with some pretty clouds giving the "ice cream effect".
i had to do a few stops before i finally made it to my friends place with my i pod, speakers, change of clothes and tons of marijuana to keep us company while we journey to the stars. this will be my 4th acid trip with my fellow psychonaut at his place.
We took one stamp each around 11pm, and prepared our dwelling place on the balcony of his apartment with candles, a bottle of arrack, tobacco, weed, few slices of pizza and water... i panicked as the speakers were not working and music is one of the most important aspects of my trip... stupid speakers failed me and i was stuck with no music! fuck it.. YES FM was playing a good house music mix till morning so we put that on and surprisingly it went well.
around midnight we started to feel the affects of the LSD. its tingly feeling and everything starts to look prettier.. and the straight outlines of objects start to wiggle a bit.. which is quite amusing! we had a friend over who left around midnight so both of us had to see her out.. one our way down the "S" shaped floor tiles were like snakes all over the place and both of us jumped up saying holy shit!! and continued to stare at the morphing floor tiles flowing and merging into one another.. ah just wonderful!
i think we reached LEVEL 3 with this stamp (ref - http://loadedvividbat.blogspot.com/2009/11/levels-of-psychedelic-experience.html)
the music was getting better and better and we broke into dance going nuts! just the 2 of us rocking it in the dim lit apartment and its just wonderful how you feel your body flow to the music blending into the rhythm and feeling so expressive with every busting move! we have a fantastic view of the buildings around and it seemed like the buildings were dancing too - just like a cartoon! all forms of reality have been twisted and animate.. after a few moments we started to gaze into the sky, moon and the stars which were twinkling and sparkling like a wonderful lights show! the universe was partying with us!
its amazing how you never run out of conversation.. we were laughing and talking about the mysteries of society and the relationships of our friends. its amazing how you understand human behaviors in this state. laughter mixed with nostalgia, heart felt emotions and love so strong you can actually grasp it with your hands! we sent love to all our loved ones and to St.Hofmann.
The morning broke and this was a different morning to the ones we usually experience - dark, cloudy, with a mystic blue that covered us. it was really a wonderful morning and we welcomed it with a shot of arrack and a joint!
As the affects were wearing off i used the final bits of energy remaining from it to do some morning exercises that helped me shoot up some blood to my brain! all in all this trip was very therapeutic for the both of us. and made us understand a lot of things that have been doubtful in our lives. i truly believe i become a better person with each trip i take - and in St.Hofmanns book "LSD my problem child" he too believes in this time and age, psychedelic experiences will heal the human race by making them realize their true potential as supreme cosmic creatures.
god bless LSD and everything that’s psychedelic
i get a call from my fellow psychonaut around 6pm - "hey man.. shall we DROP tonight"
which sounded like music to my ears.. it has almost been one month since we went on our last trip and the night was beautiful the moon and the stars were out with some pretty clouds giving the "ice cream effect".
i had to do a few stops before i finally made it to my friends place with my i pod, speakers, change of clothes and tons of marijuana to keep us company while we journey to the stars. this will be my 4th acid trip with my fellow psychonaut at his place.
We took one stamp each around 11pm, and prepared our dwelling place on the balcony of his apartment with candles, a bottle of arrack, tobacco, weed, few slices of pizza and water... i panicked as the speakers were not working and music is one of the most important aspects of my trip... stupid speakers failed me and i was stuck with no music! fuck it.. YES FM was playing a good house music mix till morning so we put that on and surprisingly it went well.
around midnight we started to feel the affects of the LSD. its tingly feeling and everything starts to look prettier.. and the straight outlines of objects start to wiggle a bit.. which is quite amusing! we had a friend over who left around midnight so both of us had to see her out.. one our way down the "S" shaped floor tiles were like snakes all over the place and both of us jumped up saying holy shit!! and continued to stare at the morphing floor tiles flowing and merging into one another.. ah just wonderful!
i think we reached LEVEL 3 with this stamp (ref - http://loadedvividbat.blogspot.com/2009/11/levels-of-psychedelic-experience.html)
the music was getting better and better and we broke into dance going nuts! just the 2 of us rocking it in the dim lit apartment and its just wonderful how you feel your body flow to the music blending into the rhythm and feeling so expressive with every busting move! we have a fantastic view of the buildings around and it seemed like the buildings were dancing too - just like a cartoon! all forms of reality have been twisted and animate.. after a few moments we started to gaze into the sky, moon and the stars which were twinkling and sparkling like a wonderful lights show! the universe was partying with us!
its amazing how you never run out of conversation.. we were laughing and talking about the mysteries of society and the relationships of our friends. its amazing how you understand human behaviors in this state. laughter mixed with nostalgia, heart felt emotions and love so strong you can actually grasp it with your hands! we sent love to all our loved ones and to St.Hofmann.
The morning broke and this was a different morning to the ones we usually experience - dark, cloudy, with a mystic blue that covered us. it was really a wonderful morning and we welcomed it with a shot of arrack and a joint!
As the affects were wearing off i used the final bits of energy remaining from it to do some morning exercises that helped me shoot up some blood to my brain! all in all this trip was very therapeutic for the both of us. and made us understand a lot of things that have been doubtful in our lives. i truly believe i become a better person with each trip i take - and in St.Hofmanns book "LSD my problem child" he too believes in this time and age, psychedelic experiences will heal the human race by making them realize their true potential as supreme cosmic creatures.
god bless LSD and everything that’s psychedelic
Friday, November 27, 2009
al(L) i want for chri(S)tmas are (D)rugs!
hahahaha... couldn’t resist saying that!
Its almost December and (I know its not only me) it feels like Christmas is actually around the corner. i remember many years where its only a few days to Christmas and still there was no apparent nostalgic, exciting feeling. Maybe because I have a lot of things to look forward to this Christmas.
Miss crazy diamond will be spending Christmas with me which is nothing short of wonderful! Miss crazy diamond is the love of my life and a veteran psychonaut. there is nothing like having a like minded lover who dares to venture into every little interesting scenario i can possibly imagine. (Cant wait to write a "sex on LSD" post in December!)
I have saved up a little money for Christmas - its not much but it will be suffice for me to have a blast! its sad what a big part money plays in having a good time in the heart of Colombo. Its not pretty but that’s the truth.. Think about it - it costs to do ANYTHING here. And its costs a lot too. so without being a tree hugging bitch i have learned to find these powerful pieces of paper that makes most of our lives go around in the city.
But i really do hope the acid gods will smile upon us and bless us with the hallucigenic host. not many people have much knowledge about LSD or any other psychedelic substance in Sri lanka - it has all been classed as DRUGS and that its bad for you and that it will make you a retard. oh wonderful wonderful perceptions!
but i do plan on taking a "journey" sometime soon.. hopefully with my fellow buddy psychonaut on a beautiful night filled with stars! (need to see that light show again!)
If any of you are scratching your heads wondering what the fuck im on about... its about time you educated yourself on the heavenly host of the universe.
St.Albert Hofmann was chosen by the universe to synthesize the molecule of infinite awareness.(which is also my display picture on the top right.. St.Hofmann holding the LSD 25 molecule structure and the infinite awareness of the universe manifested in a form of a beautiful vivid pheonix, pouring drops of infinite wisdom and truth to the molecular structure... painted by the great Alex Grey - oil on canvas.
St.Albert Hofmann (who died last year at 102 years old in 2008) - check out the link!
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Albert_Hofmann
Its almost December and (I know its not only me) it feels like Christmas is actually around the corner. i remember many years where its only a few days to Christmas and still there was no apparent nostalgic, exciting feeling. Maybe because I have a lot of things to look forward to this Christmas.
Miss crazy diamond will be spending Christmas with me which is nothing short of wonderful! Miss crazy diamond is the love of my life and a veteran psychonaut. there is nothing like having a like minded lover who dares to venture into every little interesting scenario i can possibly imagine. (Cant wait to write a "sex on LSD" post in December!)
I have saved up a little money for Christmas - its not much but it will be suffice for me to have a blast! its sad what a big part money plays in having a good time in the heart of Colombo. Its not pretty but that’s the truth.. Think about it - it costs to do ANYTHING here. And its costs a lot too. so without being a tree hugging bitch i have learned to find these powerful pieces of paper that makes most of our lives go around in the city.
But i really do hope the acid gods will smile upon us and bless us with the hallucigenic host. not many people have much knowledge about LSD or any other psychedelic substance in Sri lanka - it has all been classed as DRUGS and that its bad for you and that it will make you a retard. oh wonderful wonderful perceptions!
but i do plan on taking a "journey" sometime soon.. hopefully with my fellow buddy psychonaut on a beautiful night filled with stars! (need to see that light show again!)
If any of you are scratching your heads wondering what the fuck im on about... its about time you educated yourself on the heavenly host of the universe.
St.Albert Hofmann was chosen by the universe to synthesize the molecule of infinite awareness.(which is also my display picture on the top right.. St.Hofmann holding the LSD 25 molecule structure and the infinite awareness of the universe manifested in a form of a beautiful vivid pheonix, pouring drops of infinite wisdom and truth to the molecular structure... painted by the great Alex Grey - oil on canvas.
St.Albert Hofmann (who died last year at 102 years old in 2008) - check out the link!
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Albert_Hofmann
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Levels of Psychedelic Experience
Levels of Psychedelic experience
The Erowid Psychoactive Vaults discuss Psychedelic Experience in an FAQ that partially overviews ideas expressed in Timothy Leary's book The Psychedelic Experience: A Manual Based on the Tibetan Book of the Dead. They classified five levels of psychedelic experience.
Level 1
This level produces a mild 'stoning' effect, with some visual enhancement (e.g. brighter colors) Some short term memory anomalies. Left and right brain communication changes causing music to sound 'wider'. Can be achieved with low to medium doses of cannabis.
Level 2
Bright colors, and visuals (ie. things start to move and breathe) some 2 dimensional patterns become apparent upon shutting eyes. Confused or reminiscent thoughts. Change of short term memory leads to continual distractive thought patterns. Vast increase in abstract thought becomes apparent as the natural brain filter is bypassed. Can be achieved with higher doses of cannabis or low doses of psilocybin.
Level 3
Very obvious visuals, everything looking curved and/or warped patterns and kaleidoscopes seen on walls, faces etc. Some mild hallucinations such as rivers flowing in wood grained or 'mother of pearl' surfaces. Closed eye hallucinations become 3 dimensional. There is some confusing of the senses (ie. seeing sounds as colors etc.) Time distortions and `moments of eternity`. Movement at times becomes extremely difficult (too much effort required) Can be achieved with normal doses of psilocybin or [LSD].
Level 4
Strong hallucinations, that is, objects morphing into other objects. Destruction or multiple splitting of the ego. (Things start talking to you, or you find that you are feeling contradictory things simultaneously) Some loss of reality. Time becomes meaningless. Out of body experiences and extra-sensory perception type phenomena. Blending of the senses.
Level 5
Total loss of visual connection with reality. The senses cease to function in the normal way. One may feel like they are merging with space, other objects, or the universe, or feel oneness with the world. There are powerful, and sometimes brutal, psycho-physical reactions interpreted by some users as reliving their own birth. Feelings of reaching to the beginning or the end of space and time. The loss of reality becomes so extreme that it becomes ineffable. Dream or movie-like states, people have been reported seeing themselves in entirely different settings than their original setting. Many people experience religious phenomenon at this level. Often mentioned are an "all-powerful presence" or a "universal knowledge" which many equate to their idea of God or enlightenment. During experiences caused by substances such as DMT (which is an active ingredient in Ayahuasca), many people encounter conscious beings or entities that that seem to be alien or something stranger and manufacture visual patterns of objects that are self-aware themselves inside an incredibly strange and alien reality. These experiences cause people to experience an extra-dimensional reality of geometric patterns. Earlier levels are relatively easy to describe in terms of measurable changes in perception and thought patterns. "Ego loss", or complete dissolution of one's awareness of the existence of self, is an essential trait of level 5 experiences; the boundaries between "self" and encompassing reality cease to exist, and all that one is conscious of is the abstract manifestations of the hallucination. Thoughts are not processed or realized in words or an "inner voice", as in everyday life; in the midst of a level 5 hallucination, it is essentially impossible to distinguish conscious thought from the hallucination itself. This feeling has been described, with tryptamine-based hallucinogens like LSD or high doses of psilocybin, as a sense of "oneness" with the universe; with extremely powerful entheogens such as DMT or salvia divinorum, the resultant hallucination is difficult to describe, but has been likened by some to being "transformed into a Picasso painting". Many people claim to have spoken to intelligent entities during their trips, to have experienced alternate dimensions, or to have existed for thousands of years - often not as a human but as an abstract entity such as a shadow or paint - though the trip itself, in the case of salvia and DMT, lasted only five to ten minutes. This effect can be produced in high doses of LSD, salvia divinorum, and psilocybin.
The Erowid Psychoactive Vaults discuss Psychedelic Experience in an FAQ that partially overviews ideas expressed in Timothy Leary's book The Psychedelic Experience: A Manual Based on the Tibetan Book of the Dead. They classified five levels of psychedelic experience.
Level 1
This level produces a mild 'stoning' effect, with some visual enhancement (e.g. brighter colors) Some short term memory anomalies. Left and right brain communication changes causing music to sound 'wider'. Can be achieved with low to medium doses of cannabis.
Level 2
Bright colors, and visuals (ie. things start to move and breathe) some 2 dimensional patterns become apparent upon shutting eyes. Confused or reminiscent thoughts. Change of short term memory leads to continual distractive thought patterns. Vast increase in abstract thought becomes apparent as the natural brain filter is bypassed. Can be achieved with higher doses of cannabis or low doses of psilocybin.
Level 3
Very obvious visuals, everything looking curved and/or warped patterns and kaleidoscopes seen on walls, faces etc. Some mild hallucinations such as rivers flowing in wood grained or 'mother of pearl' surfaces. Closed eye hallucinations become 3 dimensional. There is some confusing of the senses (ie. seeing sounds as colors etc.) Time distortions and `moments of eternity`. Movement at times becomes extremely difficult (too much effort required) Can be achieved with normal doses of psilocybin or [LSD].
Level 4
Strong hallucinations, that is, objects morphing into other objects. Destruction or multiple splitting of the ego. (Things start talking to you, or you find that you are feeling contradictory things simultaneously) Some loss of reality. Time becomes meaningless. Out of body experiences and extra-sensory perception type phenomena. Blending of the senses.
Level 5
Total loss of visual connection with reality. The senses cease to function in the normal way. One may feel like they are merging with space, other objects, or the universe, or feel oneness with the world. There are powerful, and sometimes brutal, psycho-physical reactions interpreted by some users as reliving their own birth. Feelings of reaching to the beginning or the end of space and time. The loss of reality becomes so extreme that it becomes ineffable. Dream or movie-like states, people have been reported seeing themselves in entirely different settings than their original setting. Many people experience religious phenomenon at this level. Often mentioned are an "all-powerful presence" or a "universal knowledge" which many equate to their idea of God or enlightenment. During experiences caused by substances such as DMT (which is an active ingredient in Ayahuasca), many people encounter conscious beings or entities that that seem to be alien or something stranger and manufacture visual patterns of objects that are self-aware themselves inside an incredibly strange and alien reality. These experiences cause people to experience an extra-dimensional reality of geometric patterns. Earlier levels are relatively easy to describe in terms of measurable changes in perception and thought patterns. "Ego loss", or complete dissolution of one's awareness of the existence of self, is an essential trait of level 5 experiences; the boundaries between "self" and encompassing reality cease to exist, and all that one is conscious of is the abstract manifestations of the hallucination. Thoughts are not processed or realized in words or an "inner voice", as in everyday life; in the midst of a level 5 hallucination, it is essentially impossible to distinguish conscious thought from the hallucination itself. This feeling has been described, with tryptamine-based hallucinogens like LSD or high doses of psilocybin, as a sense of "oneness" with the universe; with extremely powerful entheogens such as DMT or salvia divinorum, the resultant hallucination is difficult to describe, but has been likened by some to being "transformed into a Picasso painting". Many people claim to have spoken to intelligent entities during their trips, to have experienced alternate dimensions, or to have existed for thousands of years - often not as a human but as an abstract entity such as a shadow or paint - though the trip itself, in the case of salvia and DMT, lasted only five to ten minutes. This effect can be produced in high doses of LSD, salvia divinorum, and psilocybin.
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Waking to "The Division Bell"
(blows smoke outttttttt............)
Good morning... its so cold! :) and by some twist of fate i found Pink Floyd's "The Division Bell" record... fuck... I love playing music for the moment. its sunday, its cold outside, i just had 2 bowls, and pink floyd is just taking me to another world.
Sending everyone a lot of love from my happy place...
<3
Good morning... its so cold! :) and by some twist of fate i found Pink Floyd's "The Division Bell" record... fuck... I love playing music for the moment. its sunday, its cold outside, i just had 2 bowls, and pink floyd is just taking me to another world.
Sending everyone a lot of love from my happy place...
<3
Thursday, November 19, 2009
I wanted to write this after a bowl - but i got high...
Im on a quest to purify my body! its a little form of detoxification that i do from time to time.. just something i figured out myself.. it involves starving, eating vegetarian, pushing my physical limits, lots of water and smoking some good herb that i got yesterday. Besides it gives me a good reason to visit my local vegetable vendor that has the most amazing veggies in the world! and its so cheap!!! i truly believe us Sri lankans are blessed with the yummiest edibles that mother earth has to offer.
I realised that everyone around me knows that i smoke pot. I came clean with my parents last year as i cant be bothered hiding stuff in my mid twenties and it seems to be common news that im a faithful endorser of the oh so taboo Marijuana plant.
Go fucking lick a sack!
Its amazing when someone who is so overweight, that they cant climb a flight of stairs, comes and tells me how BAD it is to smoke Marijuana. WTF??? im thinking you are 20 kilos more than you should be, you drown yourself in booze on a regular basis, you are suffering from so many illnesses its better to DIE than to live in a sorry excuse of a vessel you call your body! ugh...
I have learned its much better to smile and walk away as the little fragment in their thick skulls which is called a brain actually realises that THIS POT HEAD IS more fit, looks better and eons healthier that they could dream of... and it eats them inside that a POT smoker is actually this way.
Come walk with me for one day and ill watch you crawl
This is something every pot smoker has to go through in a society that spends millions of rupees on framing this plant that makes you actually THINK.
You know you can THINK right? its not illegal yet...
But living in Colombo... it sure feels otherwise.
I realised that everyone around me knows that i smoke pot. I came clean with my parents last year as i cant be bothered hiding stuff in my mid twenties and it seems to be common news that im a faithful endorser of the oh so taboo Marijuana plant.
Go fucking lick a sack!
Its amazing when someone who is so overweight, that they cant climb a flight of stairs, comes and tells me how BAD it is to smoke Marijuana. WTF??? im thinking you are 20 kilos more than you should be, you drown yourself in booze on a regular basis, you are suffering from so many illnesses its better to DIE than to live in a sorry excuse of a vessel you call your body! ugh...
I have learned its much better to smile and walk away as the little fragment in their thick skulls which is called a brain actually realises that THIS POT HEAD IS more fit, looks better and eons healthier that they could dream of... and it eats them inside that a POT smoker is actually this way.
Come walk with me for one day and ill watch you crawl
This is something every pot smoker has to go through in a society that spends millions of rupees on framing this plant that makes you actually THINK.
You know you can THINK right? its not illegal yet...
But living in Colombo... it sure feels otherwise.
Im high on life! (by life i mean drugs!)
Hmmmm... this square feels a little claustrophobic but im sure ill have to get accustomed to this.... just like i plan to get accustomed to b(l)ogging.
Hello world of the b(l)og! i plan on writing about something that is near and dear to me, been with me since i was a teenager, taught me lessons i would have never ever learnt through my friends parents or anyone living for that matter, made me a better human being, made me understand love, and made me understand what i really want and made me wonder to the point that i feel that i know NOTHING.
oh yeah.. im talking about drugs!
im not going to be bothered with defining what drugs i do and dont do. i have my own moral stance on it and it seems to be working fine with me balancing my health, work, friends, moods, relationships and life in general.
i am just here to share with you some tales that you might not hear from your day to day conversations with peers, family, loved ones, fuck buddies.. etc (unless you are like ME :)
i got to thank fellow b(l)ogger and a shockingly promising psychonaut for suggesting that i should start my own b(l)og!
to do justice to this b(l)og i think my first proper tale should be after i smoke a nice big bowl. i tend to be more descriptive then :)
Hello world of the b(l)og! i plan on writing about something that is near and dear to me, been with me since i was a teenager, taught me lessons i would have never ever learnt through my friends parents or anyone living for that matter, made me a better human being, made me understand love, and made me understand what i really want and made me wonder to the point that i feel that i know NOTHING.
oh yeah.. im talking about drugs!
im not going to be bothered with defining what drugs i do and dont do. i have my own moral stance on it and it seems to be working fine with me balancing my health, work, friends, moods, relationships and life in general.
i am just here to share with you some tales that you might not hear from your day to day conversations with peers, family, loved ones, fuck buddies.. etc (unless you are like ME :)
i got to thank fellow b(l)ogger and a shockingly promising psychonaut for suggesting that i should start my own b(l)og!
to do justice to this b(l)og i think my first proper tale should be after i smoke a nice big bowl. i tend to be more descriptive then :)
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